Grace. The Surrendering to Service

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Life has many challenges. Some of them are fun and some not so much. Each precious day offers us the opportunity to put our faith into action.

The more we learn about the ways of God, the more we are confronted with the fact that we fall short of the Glory of God in so many ways. Thankfully, God is very patient with us and works with us all individually at a level that we will each understand.

I remember the early days, when I used to read the Word of God and feel condemned and guilty for I just could not live up to all of the rules and regulations that I was reading. I did this for a few years. The deeper I got into the word of God, the more profound my hopelessness became.

I became disheartened and hard hearted at the same time. The way I can explain this is that while I was uncomfortably aware of my own short comings, I became blissfully aware of others. I became very judgmental of other people. I judged others as I judged myself.  Harshly.

Walking this way with the Lord, became very exhausting as I was constantly stressing out about what everyone was doing wrong instead of focusing on what people where doing right. I wanted to fix the church. Hahaha. But little did I know, that God was really trying to fix me.

One day I realized that there was something seriously wrong with my approach to God. I was legalistic and took every word of God as an order rather than an inspiration. Then the light went on.

Titus 2:11

For the grace (Influence of God on Your Heart) of God has appeared, bringing salvation for all people,

James 2:13

For judgment is without mercy to one who has shown no mercy. Mercy (Compassion) triumphs over judgment (Condemnation).

I HAD NO GRACE! NONE FOR ME AND NONE FOR OTHERS. And it showed. I was hard on my children. I was hard on my husband. I was hard to those around me. I was hard on myself.

To tell you the truth, I didn’t even understand what grace was. It was a foreign concept to me. I was not shown much grace as a child for failures, neither did I have the opportunity to experience much of it in the world before I came to Christ. I didn’t understand it at all. I was scared of it, because I was encouraged to be strong willed, minded and opinionated as a child. How could I possibly re-learn this pattern of behavior. How do I stop being judge and jury? HOW DO I FIX IT?

This was also when I realized that my faith with God was more about ME than HIS Kingdom. I was way off balance with this one too, but that is another story for another day.

The key is HOW DO I FIX IT? That was when I quickly realized that I can’t fix anything without guidance and supervision from God and the Holy Spirit. I am actually a servant and need to learn how to think of my master God, before I think of myself. Why, because I want to please Him. I am one of many who are members of the Church. We have all been called by God. We should all have a heart to serve.

“God Help Me, I dont understand how to. I dont even understand what it means. I want to serve you, but I don’t want to let my barriers down. These barriers have protected me for so many years. Help Me Please Lord To Serve You Better.”

That’s all it took for the changes to start.

Colossians 3:12

Put on then, as God’s chosen ones, holy and beloved, compassionate hearts, kindness, humility, meekness, and patience,

Suddenly, out of no where, I started to understand that God shows me grace (helpful attitude, compassion, friendly, kind, loving, honour for participation: all dictionary meanings) when I don’t deserve it. He tolerates and understands my humanity as he is molding me into the vessel of His choosing. That I am here to willingly serve him and because I love him, I will desire to change to honor Him.

When I saw this and understood, then I started being able to show the same to others. Having said this, I can honestly say that I was not and am not perfect at it. But I am aware now of when I am being judgmental. I am convicted and saddened by my own words, because I desire to serve the Lord and be a worthy assistant for God.

I was well and truly sucked into the world’s ways before I became a Christian. Some of the no good things I was doing left me as soon as I was saved, but some still remained. Some are still there even years later, I am aware, but I am on the journey to God’s perfection. I haven’t reached my destination yet. On this journey, God has shown me grace at every step. I don’t deserve it, but he does it anyway. The least I can do, is do the same for others.

You are all blessed with the Grace of God, so share the Grace to others and you will find your world start to change.

 

 

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